I love the fact that everyone decides to call me emo because of the music i listen or the style of clothes that I wear. Particularlyy that one Guyy who told me to kill myself .. after all, turns out he slits his wrists now and mine havent been near anything sharp all myy life. Oh well ... Im usuallyy that girl who gets opinion across though at the moment I want to go a little more quiet. If I didnt have myy friends or myy music I dont reallyy know what I would do! I suppose that when you loose something you understand just how much you reallyy need it? And I've been known to fuck things up and regret it! Hopefullyy its not to late to change myy life and turn it round in the right direction ...
I'm not sure if its love but I want two boys. Andyy who makes me so shyy when I'm infront of him which is definatelyy weird for me. And Jordan, he's grippyy and not manyy people like him. But I understand him because we've grown up together and I'm slowlyy falling for him again.
I have 2 majour rules in myy life. 1 Never date an ex [though that s extremelyy difficult with Jordan. and 2 Not to show emotions that make you vunerable... But thats so difficult when people chat shit.
People dont like me because I speak the truth .. Which is the reason I want to change. Behind this confident exterior there is reallyy a 14 [nearlyy 15] year old girl just wanting to be liked .. but thats not all ways possible is it?
If myy life ends happilyy [Im making sure it Fucking will] I will be so happyy .. and thats whyy I'll change for people to like me .. because theres nothing worse than being called emo or spottyy byy people who are actuallyy those things, or who are screwing one of your best friends. Though theyy always seem to be more popular dont theyy?
Thats why I sayy " Life can be a real bitch .. But someone is always at home with tissues to help you out of the shittyy times .. And jesus we should reallyy love them = )"
Last of all R.I.P Jade .. though the end was shit .. I fucking loved you.